Dear World..

Spring Break has come and gone and tomorrow school starts back up. Oh goody. Watch me gleam with excitement. Puh-Lease! I was so getting used to sleeping in and not working my ass off with stress. Now I'm forced to go back into that vastly large campus and try to prove myself good enough for college. Ugh. Why can't they just let us off for a bit more? I hate going to school and learning crap which isnt fun to learn. Unless its art and writing. Then i'm interested.

Thor. My dog. My rottie. My annoying pest. Has torn up my room. Worse then it already was. He found a bottle of cough medicine and decided to paint my bed with the red liquid cause he thought it would be so cute to show mommy his art work for when she returned from laundry and cookin food. Oh joy. Then he tore up the garabe bag I had filled cause he wanted to help mommy dispose of its evilness. Psh. Now I gotta clean all over again and do my best to clean my bed so I can sleep in it.

So.. How was your spring break? Work? Beach? Sun? Great. Good to hear it. I think I'll try laying in my bed now.. Night world. Remember. Its not whats under your bed you have to worry about. But whats on it. Like a pest of a dog who thinks its cute to dye mommys bed pink. Grr.

Goodnight.

Later.

With love,

-Crys-

Dear Forgotten World..

I wont count the ways but I will fill you in. Me and my long time boyfriend Zakry have split around November.. lol. I ended it. He wasnt commited enough and basically abandoned me already so yeah. Neways. Schools been okay I guess. We've had FCAT and SATs will becoming up next yr(My senior yr). & Then its onto my ACTs which sux. All these tests and for what? To prove to the state that your good enough to getta scholorship and go to college free of charge? No thanks. I'd rather pay. Plus.. Acandemics have never been my strong suit and for that I have alotta regrets. Sometimes I think what if? What if I didnt screw around at school BSing my way through just to graduate and making my moms proud instead of busting my ass studying away and possibly making top of my graduating class. I'm a smart kid. I could if I wanted. I just, Its alotta stress. And half the time i feel so tired. As if I were weak and its really annoying. I think ill go into night school and summer school. Work my ass off and prove I'm good enough. I know I dont have to prove anything to anyone. But this time I wanna do it for me and only me. And a lil for mom so I can hear her say shes proud of me. I think it would be the first time I'd hear her say it and when she does I know i'll cry. Omg Imma be a senior. I'm turning 18 in September and my brother AJ is taking me to a club to celebrate. Awesome right? Lol. I'm dragging my friends along. No way am I being left alone while he gets all the attention of ppl who catch his eye. Wow. I'm getting old. Snap. Crackle. & Pop.

I have new best friends. Dont get me wrong Sherri will always be my sister/best friend. But these guys are really important to me. Amanda is in 2 classes with me. Marine Science and Ceramics3. Me and her are obsessed with Harry Potter. Seriously its like religion for us. If they had a church dedicated to it me and Amanda would probably be the leaders of it before anyone else. Shes probably the only girl at school that gets me. Ya know? Vee... Shes. Shes not the best of friend. And shes not reliable or a good listenner and when you try to tell your probs in confidence she changes the subject. Its like she could care less. Neways. Onto Sam. Shes very cool. Shes probably helped me more then she knows but hey who hasnt helped another in some way. Me and her are both very obsessed with POTC and HP. & Asian bands/dramas and movies. What can I say? Their irresistable. But yeah. Sams muh best friend. She gets me in more ways then you know world. Ha. Girl meets World. Awesome.

Wow. I dont think i've ever written this much before but hey thats okay. Did you know theirs 3 different kinds of Rootbeer? Yeah. Theirs Barq's. Mug. and the cheap-o you buy at Publix to save you sum cash. All the christmas lights in my room went out so now I have to replace them. Yes. Fascinating isnt it?

The puppies are all snuggled deep in my bed under the covers sprawled out in comfort. Brats need to move their butts cuz dang i'm tired. Hm. My sneakers on the desk. And the other one is under the desk. I have no idea how it got up here. Maybe cuz I'm too tired that I cant remember. God. Gotta upload these pics from the cam. I'll do it tomorrow. Too tired right now.

I gotta clean my room. So messy. Theres even a pizza box sitting ontop of the monitor. & A plate from tonights dinner. Lol. Sucha messy kid aint I? Ha. Theirs a sock sitting on the laptop case. Haha. Wow. Randomness.

Wow. Do I even have clothes for tomorrow? Shiznit. I hadnt even though about that. Oh well.. Ill worry bout that tomorrow.

Laterz!

-Crys-

P.S. MUG is the better Rootbeer.

FRIENDS

This is Vyanna and Keith, though their heads are turned its a cute pic for the couple of a month now.

Charlie.... Caught purposely in his turtle neck...*Sigh*

Willie. The ever loving wild child.

Tehe. She rawks. I've known her since like grade school. This is Courtney.

Albert! Hes not french. Hes hispanic but we call him frenchy cause its funny.

 

Thats all for now. Much love. -Crys-

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Randomness

So, hows life? Bet its good. Mine not so much. Zaks moving down soon. Sherri and me are trying to stay in contact but with the distance its not that easy. Her mom lost her job, her dad doesnt work and apparently her mom hasnt got off her ass to get a new job. Sherri says she hates it there. She has one friend there and I have none here. Least she has some one. I dont even get to take a walk around the block for some time to myself! I'm trying to get Sherris mom to let Sherri move in with me. Sherris miserable in Georgia and I'm miserable here in Florida. Their gonna lose the house that their in right now if her mom doesnt get off her ass and do something meaningful like get a better and bigger paying job. But no she'd rather sit at the computer all day and bull*%#! around. How do I kno shes always on and never job searching? Because shes on my buddy list and Sherris always talking about that when we call each other. We cant even call each other anymore because her moms cell phone has been shut off and their long distance has been revoked by the phone company. Now i'm waiting for Sherris mom to get offline so that I can call Sherri and tell her the brilliant plan I thought up. See Sherri and me are going to go to Valencia together so we can get into Writing. Were both brilliant at it and if Sherri doesnt live here in Florida during Senior year then Sherris gonna have to pay more money then she needs to in order to enter Valencia. So her mom will either A) Let Sherri move in with me Senior yr(1yr away) B) Move back with her tail between her legs or C) I dun have a C.. but if i did it'd be like the last resort for Sherris mom before i just gave up and kidnap Sherri. Wanna know my dreams? I dream of bigger things. Better. I dream of being a great Artist and an amazing writer. I dream of someday getting out of Florida and making those dreams a reality. I dream of going to Europe and living for once. I dream of loving, living, being, seeing, and never regreting. I dream of it all. & one day hope to have it all. I dream of making an impact in this world and leaving behind a legend of myself. I dream of everything and anything in between. I dream of dreams.

-Crys-

Random

Schools almost over and I can't wait. So sick of waking up at 5:30am in the mornin to catch a bus that gets here at 6:30am. Its so annoying I feel like i'm gettin less and less sleep. Zak's doing good. Tho I miss him alot. I have to get my room done soon, whenever I get the chance. I have my final exams on Monday and Tuesday which are both half days and then we get out on Tuesday. Cool huh? Friday we have exams as well but 3rd period is Drawing 1 (Were just gonna have a party). 4th period is PAWS, were having a party there too I think. & 5th period is Spanish were DEFINATELY having a party there if everyone presents their stupid dialogues on Thursday, if not the partys gonna be a lil shorter lol. Spikes annoying the crud outta my ear drums by squaking so loud. Heathy just signed on. I got a bunch of posters from 'Popstar' magazine! 16 I think. Pretty cool huh? ZZTop & Mom just walked in, lol ZZ's sniffing my MD Code Red. Thats funny. Wagging her permanently curled tail at even the slightest noise. I guess it makes her happy. Shes sniffing everything. I guess the nose knows right? Moms rose is wilting. Maybe she'll press it soon. Dad bought it for her for Mothers Day. I asked mom: 'He thought up to buy that all by himself?' She laughed and said: 'I asked myself the same thing.' Its currently resting in a make-shift vase namely: A Dasani bottle of water. Lol. I finished my Art Collage today. It looks great. Least I think so. Neways. Imma go, I'm tired and my muscles are getting tense. Lada!

-Crys-

Life and Sweet Revenge

Well.. Truth be told.. I tried my best. Life been hectic and I'm sry I dont keep my losey promises of keepin up with this journal. I'm tryin my best to hang on strong. Really I am. But its not easy with an pr!ck for a dad and an ass for a brother named Eric. I cant wait til Zak moves down. Maybe then ill actually be happy again. I miss being happy. It used to feel good being happy. Used to feel good when I knew ppl at school were actually my friends and not sitting there talking about me every chance they got. But imma show them all. I'll make them regret the day they met me next year. No more being picked on, no more being shot down and made out as a joke. Screw them all. I'll show them all and laugh in their faces like they did mine. Gonna change over the summer. Gonna be a whole new person. Have all new clothes to show my new self and a new attitude. I'll rise above them all and make somethin of myself. Now all I need is someone to cheer me on. Cuz if I dun have that, I'll lose all modivation. G2G. Ttyl Bai.

-Crys-